Thursday, May 19, 2011

All Out of Titles

I don't even know what to call this post. Closure? Heartache? Anger? Disappointment? The list could really go on and on.

I got the dreaded "I care about you so much and I respect you enough to call and tell you that I'm with this girl now, and I wanted you to hear it from me" call today. I honestly knew it was coming. I want him to be happy, really I promise I do. He said he still wanted to go to movie night and baseball games with me and I finally put my foot down and said no. I refuse to be a bone of contention between them. He said he would talk to her about me and I said absolutely not. He said he would die if I wasn't his friend anymore. He should have thought of that before he started making bad choices.

After we had our "chat" he started talking about his life and all of these "goals" he had. And honestly I didn't even know who that person was. He has changed so much, and now I think it will be easier. I still care about him, but I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want him to live his life and allow me to live mine. He told me he wanted me to be happy and right now I think that involves him being out of my life. He told me to call whenever I wanted to see him. That's one phone call I won't be making.

I feel like a terrible person for saying that, but he will forget about me eventually. I'll learn to live without him, and we will both be better people for it.

1 comment:

  1. Well, as much as that stinks i think that's the right thing to do Rachel. =( Prayin for you always =)
    try to have a good Friday


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