I am a planner to the core, but recently, I have figured out that I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. I really just want to get a good job, get married, have kids, grow old, etc.
However, when I look to the future, all I see is me. By myself. I'm a very independent person, so I don't think this is a bad or unhealthy thing, and I'm not saying that I don't want to get married, because I do. But, my life doesn't depend on it. I am self sustaining, which makes me feel so much more blessed because I know that I can be on my own and still be ok. Living through the second worst year of my life at Russellville taught me that.
So no matter if I decide to find an office job, continue my schooling, open my bookstore, become an antiques appraiser, or whatever God decides is the right career path for me, I'm going to be ok. If I have a family, I'm going to be ok. If I don't have a family, I'm going to be ok.
Basically, what I'm trying to say is, it doesn't matter what the future holds, because my life has been planned to the most intricate detail that I cannot even imagine and life is a gift that I for one and going to cherish.
I am glad that you have already learned that. I had to learn the hard way that God is in control. I am thankful though b/c he has showed me great things & I am so thankful He has a plan for me that is better than my own.
ReplyDeleteYou are just so wonderful =)
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I worry about the same exact things. This is why our friendship works.
I started a comment but it was to long. So instead I blogged you.
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